Watching

I can't think of this right now
so many things swimming in my head
and it hurts when I think of you

my heart seizes when my breath catches
and my limbs stop working all the same
it overcomes me all of a sudden
with the mention of your name

it's crazy how you drive me
wild with desire
when I hardly know you but I want to
it's insanity...for me to want you
as much as I do right now
right now
when all we have is right now

You're commitment is where I want to be
looking from the outside is everything I see
the treatment of you is the anger uncontrolled in me

my knees buckle as my tongue swells
when my mind races with these thoughts
overcoming all of a sudden
when I see your smiling face